From $12k to $130k......and I'm scared to sell now

I’ve been riding this roller coaster since late 2019..... I started small just a few hundred bucks every month comforting myself it was ‘dumb money.' But then 2020 hit, and my side hustle as a barista was lost when lockdowns began. Student loans , little carelessness with spending , few medical bills due to some family issues. Watching my savings go down, I figured, why not double-down on Bitcoin? Worst case was me being in the same place I was year back . Fast forward to mid-2021: I’d scraped together about $12,000 through freelance and sold off a handful of collectibles to DCA more aggressively. Didn’t tell a soul( my bestfriend and I felt embarrassed for 'betting the farm' . My partner thought I was gambling away our future. But every green candle felt like some sorta hope… Then came the collapses: LUNA implosion (around May 2022), exchange hacks, the full-on crypto winter of 2022. I hovered by my screen at odd hours sitting between friends , family gatherings ,,,,every time price dipped below my entry I lost sleep.Even though I had backup of my job at that point. Somehow, by Q1 2025, that $12k had snowballed into $130,000 . I know, it sounds impossible like one of those late-night infomercials, or general youtube shorts stories but here we are. And now I’m staring at my balance, wondering if I should pull the trigger and secure my future, or sit tight because the next halving could break all records.I’m exhausted. The stress of watching every headline interest rate hikes, geopolitical flashpoints, inflation reports has turned me into a jittery wreck. I catch myself refreshing the chart at 3 AM. My partner tells me I need a break, that money’s not worth my peace of mind. But the thought of walking away before the next bull run scares me more than missing out. So here’s where I’m at: I’m eyeing a 50% exit. Enough to clear debts, stash some into a small down payment fund, and take a few trips I’ve planned with my partner. The rest stays locked in fortified cold storage, because if we’re not hodling, what’s the point? I don’t know if this is capitulation or a pragmatic win. Maybe I’m not that gutsy. but it’s okay at the end now that I’m writing this post remembering it all .