i gave an escort 3 bitcoin in 2013 and still obsessively check her wallet address

This is probably weird but i need to get it off my chest.

Back in 2013 i paid an escort with 3 bitcoin. it was worth maybe $300 total at the time, so it seemed like a reasonable transaction.

Here's the messed up part - i still check that bitcoin address regularly. have been for 11 years now.

those bitcoins just sat there untouched all this time. she probably had no idea what they were or how to access them.

Recently i noticed movement on the address. she's been transferring small amounts to coinbase, probably finally figured out how to cash them out.

Do you know what 3 bitcoin is worth today? around $350,000.

I've watched that address occasionally over the years wondering if she knew what she was sitting on. part of me hoped she'd forgotten about them entirely so i wouldn't have to think about the money.

but now she's cashing out and i can't stop checking the blockchain explorer. it's like watching someone win the lottery with money that used to be mine.

The worst part is i have zero bitcoin now. spent it all back when it was "just internet money" that nobody took seriously.

she probably doesn't even remember me, but she's about to be $350k richer because of a transaction i made over a decade ago.

I know this is unhealthy but i can't stop tracking the address. it's become this weird obsession with what could have been.

Anyone else have financial decisions from their past that they can't stop thinking about?

This is eating at me and i don't know how to let it go.